In February of 2019, I found myself in the Emergency Room in excruciating pain. I had no idea what was happening to me, I just knew something wasn’t right. Lots of investigating later, the doctors told me I was passing a kidney stone. In the mean time, they found out my gall bladder was inflamed and I had a gall stone the size of a marble. I had to wait until the kidney stone came out before I could deal with anything else. So I went home and waited. There is only so much water a person can drink, and I think I found my limit! They could not tell me how long it would take to pass, so I was looking at days or possibly weeks.
I was home managing the pain and decided to start a painting. I did not realize what a beautiful distraction it would end up being. With each stroke and color added, I was thinking about things I was thankful for. Even this painful, tiny little kidney stone! Painting calmed my thoughts and helped me relax. Had it not been for that evil little stone, I never would have found out that my gall bladder was possibly to blame for some other issues I had been experiencing for some time. Thankfully, it only took 5 days to pass and I had my gall bladder removed two days later! I am so grateful for gifted surgeons and people who can help fix what is broken in us. It reminded me of how the Holy Spirit has done that for my soul. He has mended what was broken, and it has been a journey of healing, but I feel like a different person. A whole person.
I got to create something beautiful in the midst of pain. What a reflection of what God can do if we let Him. I now have an empty space where my gall bladder used to be, but I have some handy titanium clips in there forever securing what was detached and moved around. Segway to a visual of my emotional self….letting something go, trusting that it has been cut out for good, and that I will ultimately heal and will not think about “what used to be” there in that space. I am finding that the more I am willing to hand over to God, the more I am willing to trust Him to fill in that space, the more He willingly fills me up with what is healthy, loving, and good. I love this little painting. Peace and beauty in the midst of pain and uncertainty, the circumstances completely out of my control. What an awesome reminder that even when things get hard, we can choose to focus on what is good. A grateful heart is good medicine. I’m grateful to have that all behind me!